finding strength

juz came back from discussn for my ts marketing proposal discussion..was so thankful dat God has blessed e JS presentation yesterday..these few days had been a diffcult one to go thru..not pertaining abt studies alone..reali not my main priority of concern..but tink wat claramae shared during subD was quite timely..habbakuk was like asking God why did he allow evil to prevail or circumstances he did not understand to happen..i was in similar situation..could not come to terms with wat is happening in my life..why people's hearts can change or grow cold..yet acutely aware dat e heart is deceitful n sinful at e same time..after all, it's a human heart we having

yet can sense e Lord giving me e strength despite what happened..felt quite helpless how to support tis brother..normally quite stuck but experience God's wisdom n confidence as i spoke to him juz now..was looking thru my growth plans from sep'05-apr'06..almost all the plans came to pass! praise e Lord for his faithfulness..examples incl taking care of 2 yr1 brothers..learning to be Christ-centered more..preparing for working life..i am experiencing something tt i had never felt..despite feeling disappointed,negative..failed e same spiritual test again..but there's tis peace in my heart, less anxious/self-condemned but i can pick up from here..can rejoice in him..nothing gonna keep me down man..his word will forever stay forever..even if ppl change or myself get distracted..