David's heart

had a good time w jason on sat..my new cg brother..kin wee's close frenz..we just go to e vivocity job fair..though like knew him only a wk plus but encouraged by his faith and openess to share his life..reali affirm me of God's power and what it can bring to people's lives, changing them eternally..it's everything from e joy received for life to how His word penetrates and plays an impt role in e person's decision-making..

tink i am reali blessed by e old testament course that i had been attending..organised by hope sem..now halfway thru liao..i never know reading OT can be so exciting n relevant for one's life..kudos to Yin San my instructor..God never fails to use her to share insights abt e various characters n themes in OT..e most recent example was abt David..i understood deeper e meaning of repentance and how big a heart David has for God's ppl..he is actuali a ordinary n sinful person like us as what he did w e wife of his trusted soldier..beersheba..you see that tis wilful sin of his have serious consequences despite e fact that he has repented..yes..i realised dat it's true, repentance is one thing but bearing e consequences is quite another thing..u see dat it caused tis sin to be replicated in his son..lying w his sister n even absalom to take revenge n even want to take his father's life..causing david to have much sorrow..yet despite all this, can see his heart still for God..if u examine scriptures, his repentance is not conditional like wat i used to do at times..God i ask for yr forgiveness BUT...ask for yr grace in tis area of life..PLease dun show yr wrath..nope he desn't do dat..instead..he prayed..God, deal w me as u wish..it's a realisatn of God's soverignty upon his life n accepting e mistakes he has made..he did not complain or sulk when he fasted to ask God to spare his son's life..he did not retaliate or deny when prophet Nathan rebuked him for his sin..i tink i'm ashamed when comparing my heart condition to David's at times..there are times my repentance wasn't thorough n i refuse to accept my mistakes or receive God's grace..yet David unreservedly come before God w no qualms/arguments at all..in his dying days..he still commissions to make sure dat there r enough equipment n everything is ready for Solomon to build e Lord's temple..tis reali shows his heart attitude n life priorities..he is not interested in claiming God's credit for himself like Saul's - afraid to give up his kingship..despite all e numerous achievements he has done..nope..it's not his credit and he gives e Lord e glory..n his son to carry on e work..no wonder he is e only character in e whole Bible described by God as one who is after His heart desires..

tink abt it..i am nthg to say abt myself..sometimes, i grumble dat cg venue is too far away..or have to reply to guofeng abt my sowing after a long day..i resist..but how w'd David respond? i guess i have still a lot to learn and i will ctd to sign up for tri sem3 courses! have one in mind, Principles of Bible Study..yeah man! tink it's more rewarding compared to watching movies or running..i'd still pursue them but w'd want to give more attentn to building up my Bible knowledge..i am getting sianz actuali..n not tinking abt anything except to juz secure a job for now..n ctd to serve God! best cure to avoid negativity in my life =) hmm..might be a gd thing not to start work so early after all..give me e time n space to discover abt myself n God..in tis new ministry as i ctd to explore n prepare myself for e working life..