small pond

drank quite a bit over e wkend..since fri till sun..had a great time at boss' house..all e bingo n win/lose/draw games..guessing of movies n acting out..haha..gd time entertaining n be entertained..watched 'devil wears prada' as well..

was refreshed by the talk w guan an juz now as well as the subd dinner last night..all the thanksgiving pts made by some bros n sis..i was touched by how open when some ppl shared abt their personal struggles be it bitterness towards parent,learning to be more open etc..others like me shared abt how we identified w e kind of ideals we want to c in the gp..

tink 2006 had been a great one for me..it is e yr i discover a lot abt myself, renewed in my understanding abt God..learning to handle emotions better n be more confident and at ease w oneself and ppl..many 'firsts' for me though mainly in sports..never so enthu like before-went for biathlon,full marathon,adventure race n wkly soccer..but it's thru sports i got tis job n find an outlet, a kind of therapy for me to handle all e negativity n stress i go thru..somehow, i sense God's presence whenever i play sports, He gave me strength n teach me abt life in e midst of it..i became clearer in my thinking n felt better everytime..looks like it'd be a lifelong affair =)

thankful n surprised by e job scope i am doing..still discovering but have a better grasp..went back to nus few wks ago..was amazed when we discussed abt an internal run n it's around kent ridge! that is e route dat i usually run w bros during my studies! can't believe tis is part of my job..n other things oso..some things picked up in uni ministry like outreaching or seeing successors can be applied for my job as well though context is different..n i came in at a right time when i had not taken on any projects yet but learning,helping out,observing..my colleague said i am 'lucky' but i noe in my heart well is e Lord who blessed, guiding me along e way..knowing dat i take time to warm up..

reali want to make e full use of my time there..after all, it's a 2yr contract job..i juz pray dat God w'd give me much courage n open doors for me to know more ppl, drive new ideas/intiatives..can help bros n sis succeed in the marketplace

reali felt encouraged n ashamed oso when guan an was sharing how at his workplace, he knew a fellow hope bro from another NG who won gd comments from fellow colleagues for his excellent work n how he is taking care of a Unit..ppl from different backgrounds..n going into courtship..had 6/7 sheeps..his answer to managing all these is: follow what the Bible says..just dat!

tot that's e first time i heard something like dat..somehow i got stirred cos e answer seemed so simple yet it is so true as well..what can be more difficult than dat? my spirit, can say, it is revived..cos it's something dat i have been thinking abt..all e things dat happened so far seemed to show dat God wants me to stretch beyond my imagination..to see what is infinite than what my mind can understand..ashamed cos i get distracted n affected easily by bgr prospecting,sianz abt state of affairs in cg..these problems seem so big to me yet tis bro is like doing so much more..i am also a believer as well! cannot be man..that is wat i want to find out this new year

some ideas i have
-continue to add to fitness calendar, the standards still there:running,soccer n trying adventure sports,gym maybe
-build upon acting/performing n hosting experiences: take up dance classes,pray for opportunities in company to do so..haha
-continue to take hope sem modules..just 2 more to get a certificate in Global Christian Studies..
-learn driving though it is a big one for me to go thru e process..sianz but tink have to
-be more active to build relationships w cg n unit ppl, more networking,huha,rara in work
-go for short term mission trips to understand God's calling for me in tis area
-disciple swee leong n hongdao effectively. my last bit,watever it takes, to see them succeed in their uni life..ya..do tink dat 've neglected them much..haiz..but burdened to want to help n invest in them
-rise up to take care n disciple more adults ppl..tis needs more love n e need to establish credibility..hopefully can taste some success in work n ministry oredi by then..

guess e analogy is i am like a fish which has been swimming in a small pond all tis years..enjoyed all dat God has been working,transforming mine n our ppl's lives..yet when i stepped out into e working world..gosh..it's like an ocean out there man..dat's how i feel man..so many new things n discoveries..i see dat staying in e pond all e time can be unhelpful at times esp when u want venture out n do more things for God..can't imagine my life is just surrounded by meeting church ppl n fellowship everyday and only dat..though it's impt still..there's a limit i suppose..i prob want to live a more holistic life as well:be open-minded,mingle w different kinds of ppl,stay relevant-read up/go clubbing if need be, to be all things to all men..yet staying close to personal convictions

cos i dun tink u can experience God much if u dun venture,have faith to step out to try new things,change yr old mindset,attitudes..guess it's linked to our breakthru campaign..i do question n think when i hear many bros n sis..they want to be counsellors..or they end up doing sales/administrative work..i dun deny dat there r some who r interested in e fields in e first place..it's their calling but e qn is: have we given much thought to seek God's purpose in all tis decision-making..it can be too comfortable of a decision to take..is there any element of faith n kingdom mentality invol? tink that is wat we r trying to do ba i guess..i do tink it is not easy for me, knowing my phlegmatic self, w'd be a tedious one n require personal commitment n faith..but w'd try anyway

2006 is juz a sneak preview, 2007 is e real thing! God be in all e exploits we venturing for Him in all aspects of our lives!

Joshua 1:7 -8 "Be strong n courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land i swore to their forefathers to give them. Be strong n veri courageous.

Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave u; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so u may be careful to do everything written in it. Then u will be prosperous and successful."