it was a roller coaster ride swimming on sat for e spore biathlon..my 3rd one..e waves were reali a killer. i thoroughly enjoyed e swim though. it was my dream to be able to swim at east coast one day. fulfiled dat in e two biathlons i went for. i just couldnt imagine dat when u wanted to head towards e finishing line which was directly in front of u. in a linear format..you couldnt swim towards it but got carried away by waves. Gosh
Why e push? it seems like a redeeming act for me i suppose..i cant help but feel dat i need to be fit n healthy..not those occasional once-in-blue-moon or need ppl push/initiate exercise..dun tink dat works..i guess it's veri much i enjoying it n hope thru tis w'd be another platform to make myself more 'salty'..though totally unconventional esp in our community-at-large..dun tink there r many who are interested..tis kind of races prob can do it when i am young n single..make e most of my 'freedom' while it lasts..i am aiming for to complete 2 more triathlons n 2 more adventure race if time n fitness permits..finish tis year full of physical breakthrus'..hopefully there'd be spill-overs to other areas of breakthrus as well..
am right when swee leong dat i am pretty much an activist or doer when experiencing God..though i am oso exp Him thru relatnship but not to dat extreme..
reali thank God. i finally passed my basic theory! after 5 attempts i think..i was feeling veri negative when i was doing e test..tots got so conditioned dat on my mind is prob i need to book again e next time round..but strangely reminded dat all i have to do is to give my best regardless of e outcome..dat my life is meant to be a sacrifice, a worship unto Him no matter wat happens..i just have to do my best..tis was prob one of e rare times i experienced God real in my working life as i walked towards e driving centre..
going to get appraised soon..my past wk was busy doing up all e KPIs i need to fulfil..and chasing some post-seminar stuff..though it juz seemed like i am a mth shy of working for half a yr..somehow i feel dat i've worked for like some donkey years..juz hope everything w'd turn out fine..everything dat happened tis past few wks seemd to point towards e start of another gwth cycle..after much struggle n making sense of life experiences..
veri thankful dat i am working now..feels sense of satisfactn when i can give to parents..reali make them feel assured esp my mum knowing dat she can switch to part-time since i working liao..it must been a heavy load off her heart tis some 16 yrs of being in tis job just to support me n my sis..i feel great..God reali provides..seriously i dun lack anything now..have enough to spend materially though definitely can save n strategise more my spending..it feels gd when i can just bring my mum out for dinner n paying for meal..instead of relying on her so much for cash n allowance..
yet it is oso a time to come out of spiritual lethargy notably lost e child-likeness as zewei aptly pointed out during thur's cg..it was a time of sober judgment for me tis few days after dat..it didnt reali hit me in e face till dat time..it felt worse yest during my subD's first alpha sessn..though i was invol in leading games..yet i couldnt get e rid of feeling veri bad of not proactive in asking my frenz..not sure if it's conditioned or reali burdened but evax is sthg veri basic of our faith..if i am not even doing it, no need to talk abt other things ba..
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