daredevil

went for windsurfing intro class some two weeks ago..was a difficult time of learning..it's a quite a niche sport..u need to have e right balance,techniques n strength in order to learn tis sport..i look at my colleague who is a windsurfer pro n instructor..i have to give my hands to him..he can juz easily grab e sail n board n glide on it so effortlessly and off he goes to with e other avid enthusiasts..it is reali an eye opener juz to see e many sails out there in e open sea..e surfer beating e wind at fast speeds..wow..reali spectacular..at e end of e course, couldnt still hold my balance on top of e board but at least managed to glide a bit..at least..haha..

went for a haircut n colouring prior to dat..following e many comments of my colleagues..reali resistant to e idea of dyeing my hair..all my life have always been coloured black..only went for neighborhood barber shops for cheap cuts..over my dead body man..waste tis kind of money but hey..thinking thru..why not? not a bad idea to try sthg new ya..if it means oso i can be more relevant to ppl around..i guess dat's pretty much my intentions to pursue sports juz trying new things..maybe some of our ppl yesterday at east coast was 'uncomfortable' by tis 'crazy guy' who played soccer prior to kayaking..then went cycling..what is he up to? is he out of his mind? tink dun 've much of an intentn to show off anything..if there is any..it's more of a lifestyle for me dat i picked up since dec 05..e first marathon i went for..i juz got more n more into it..prob a form of 'addiction'..do get out of hands sometimes..but it's e endurance n persevering part..adventuring,pushing personal limits dat make it all worthwhile..guess it'd be in me for some time..e idea of doing it tog w God's strength juz blows me off to tink of e unimaginable pursuits..limitness..

picking up some pieces after my manager's due departure end-may..e news came at a time when i was seeking for some directions in my life..should i go back social work..wat r my niche areas? marketing/performing? should i even be here in spore? no answer for now..but i guess i gonna put all tis ideals on hold..too much idealism aint dat good man..let juz wait n see..prob 've to account more direct to bosses but hey it's a gd opportunity to grow in communication n learn to make my stand..justify my point of view..make me think more..yup more meticulous n confident..

another half a yr of exploring uncertainty..i wonder how i'd be like by then? should be exciting still :)