tis wk has been different for me, in some ways..i feel a bit 'lost' after missing out e sun's triathlon..e regular training suddenly lost its meaning..but still go for some run..but w'd be juz maintaining..
went for my jc class outing on wed..after some 2 years of not seeing them..was pretty surprised when i knew that two of my female classmates are oredi married! one is even starting to save up..for children's future..wow..dun noe whether i have lost touch w e world out there or have been too sheltered..i just find it hard to believe..to a certain extent, i was a bit 'affected' not juz e bgr sense but looking strictly from e worldy sense, they r quite a few steps ahead of me..gosh..can't help not wanting to compare..esp halfway thru e dinner, i felt a sense of inferiority n 'loser' mentality..remembered them saying lines like:
Them> "How's yr car like, which model is that?"
Me> "man, i dun even have a driving licence yet."
Them> "Dun noe whether should i quit my job and join this bank..how abt that one."
Me> "wor..i dun dare to even imagine..i got employed at least, enjoy wat i am doing."
Them>"why dun u get attached, should start doing sthg.."
Me>"u think it's so easy to find meh..can't imagine e commitment to be like, make close friends can."
and e list goes on..but assured myself in e end not to let it affect me too much ba..in life, u give n take man..take some, lose some as well but not possible to win all..e qn to ask: what do i want out of my life?
in office as well..got a new colleague in e same dept..let's just say that it's someone familiar in e ex-nus community i was in..rather interesting..and it happens so fast from the time of her interview till seeing her in e office for her first day on wed..wor..i guess i have to 'adjust' a bit..so far so gd..
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