marching on strong

now i'm in ctrl lib..haha..feeling so excited and refreshed after a gd run yesterday night w Gerard..haha..reali want to thank God for this brother..though i only know him like 1 mth plus..from hi-bye tutorial pals to brothers-in-Christ now! PTL..i couldn't give thanks enough for all that he has done..a great help when i needed one..helped me bind 01 readings..so willing to lend me his bks..gave me advice how to study and run..haha..there's juz so much i can learn from him..a smart guy man who is not stressed easily like me but see the value in learning and understanding the big picture..fantastic..it's not juz a one-way but mutual..haha..though i think e only thing i can help him is prob spiritual aspect..

it's juz undescrible joy to see bros n sis working hard in their studies..though struggling at times, they still continue to persevere on..trusting God and give their best in serving Him..i'm reali looking forward to see how God can use a few ordinary and gifted pple like us to make a great impact for him in arts and beyond..i reali believe tt it'd happen..Juz feel so peaceful and joyful when i commit my studies into his hands and not thinking too much about what w'd happen..I'm not like what i used to be all this while but steadily trusting God every step of my revision and giving my best..though on my mind i do think of my grades and how i'd fare..but it's not excessive anymore..at least i do not want to think like this anymore..reali..want to be juz like my jc days..trusting Him all the way and tt's it..seriously..studies is not juz abt grades..it's much more than tt..esp for my major..so wat if u get all e As, does tt make u e best social worker around? it might be but to a certain extent..whatever it is, i still want to do well though..i dun want to be unfaithful w tis place He has given me..there's only 2 paths i can choose..either a mediocre,status quo,stay in comfort zone,get stressed or another one is all e way for Christ,learning first-grades 2nd,challenge myself to grow..

i was juz pondering..how much can we do for Christ in our lifetime, to what extent can we be of influence in the society of ours? on one hand..feel tt i'm veri far away from what some outstanding bros in our district like zewei,alan,wenjiang etc is doing..reali active learners and impacting the top strata in society..e govt etc..on the other hand..it juz stirs in me tis admiration and conviction tt i ought to take more ownership of my walk w God..4 yrs in Christ is no big deal..Paul didn't think so..what should I?

it's a struggle i face at times when i think abt it..there is juz tis discontentment in me..i dun mean dissatisfied and unhappy but tis longing and desire to do sthg abt it..not to let my life gone to waste..at e most it's juz 40 yrs or less to live...n my parents at the most <20..i>