2005/4

praise God! juz checked my modules..allocated e ones i want to do..haha..reali hope to excel tis sem for Christ hope to bring my cap up to 3.84 n beyond..tt means i need 2A- n 2 B+ in order to do so..i want to be a full time nerd oso..haha..a few things to thank God for the yr tt just passed..

1. i' m reali so glad tt His grace helped me thru' the exams though it was a difficult one for me..doesn't help esp when my sis is no longer in church when she broke the news to me juz before my papers..haiz..coupled with sickness and minstry like sowing and FU..didn't noe how i manage thru'..experienced headache,fever yet still got to revise..not too much affected by the things tt happened..i couldn't have done it with God's strength..i owed my cap the best ever-3.875! to his credit..nthg to boast abt, grades not so impt as much as what i experienced..it's like wat Paul experienced..to be able to identify with Christ and know His fellowship and power..

2. It's a yr tt i served God again esp after i came back to him after the church camp..before tt..for a year, i was in the wilderness..reali glad tt i had come back..it's a different experience now compared to that in the past..had more conviction to serve, motivated by God more than pple and circumstances around..it's such a joy to see the arts pple come in one by one..hurray! our cg is going to birth! to have e opportunities to share to my relatives oso timely abt my testimony..to serve in e project acts,beach event,uni forums and nbcg..haha..it's a blessing to be in e nus subD though it was difficult for me to adjust in e first 4 mths..haha..a veri diff ministry..it's a gd thing to be stretched mentally,spiritually and emotionally..

yet it's not a bed of roses..though i had come back..yet i'm still veri much an independent person..dun like to relate to pple at times..prefer to be alone..lack of patience..dun like to learn..task-oriented..haha..it'd be a challenge for me tis yr to grow in love for pple around as i become a CL..ownership is on me to deny more of my self n allow Christ to work in me more..to be more prepared to manage my emotions well when i'm discouraged yet having the joy and focus..being an active learner n a gd discipler...haha..if 2004 is a gd year(even-gd, odd-not so gd)..it's juz a sneak preview..haha..05 will be an extension..dun want it to be not so gd..it's a crucial yr for my bros oso..derek w'd finally ord! is he staying or going overseas? kin wee w'd grad oso in due time..me,benglee,gerard and edwin will be yr3 liao..it's a new chapter for me now esp got to start to noe e pple around esp my bros n sis in the unit more..since my sis is in another church..haha..tt incl. my shepherd like zewei..hopefully things w'd get better..haha..it's a challenge..

juz feel so fortunate tt i'm still alive..it's reali a privilege n His grace..He can easily allow the tsunami to hit us but yet He spares us..yet many times..i take my life for granted, oblivious to the fact tt i 've a home,food, water,healthy..how much can i ask for..yet i noe at the same time..life is not juz abt earning money,getting a wife..it's much more than tt..which i reali hope to be in the centre of His Will..to be the best nus student He wants me to be..of salt n light to the pple around..not one hiding in my insecurities,full of fears..tt's not wat He wants for all Christians..definitely not..Jesus, help me though i noe tt i'm weak but you r strong..Let yr Will be done and not mine..

my birthday wishes '05
1. able to do honours! get a cap of 3.84
2. do my part to bring as many freshmen esp guys! as possible in e 4 faculties-'ve a cg-size of freshmen each in arts,eng,soc n sci!
3. pioneer my CG into a Unit by end-sep!
4. be a positive,relational,joyful person and an active learner!reading apologetics + other bks etc..learning guitar/language..clear my ippt! practising wat i learnt in sw-all e gp/counselling skills