in Him i'd trust..

feel quite drained even as i typed this..but experienced God's strength..so not so much..haha..actually had a hard-pressed wk since last mon..it was like God quickly put me thru' another set of tests n trials right after my brithday..almost broke down but was not beyond wat i could bear..actually it's not so much studies tt concerned me..haha..focusing on interest more than grades..but it's e lifestyle tt i'm adjusting still..dmm w clara n core team,dclm,matric com,3 projs at hand but 2 almost done..,ex-sheeps not doing well,tuts/cg/FUs/shepherdings to prepare..wow..xiong man..actually broke down last thurs on bus 151 while on e way to sch..my heart was juz broken-heartened, i juz cried out to Him and i juz experienced His renewal almost instantaneously..sensed a new surge of energy,joy n peace,,hmm..i can move forward again..thank God..it's quite a fast sem yet it's different from e previous 3 sems..haha..i'm almost at hq daily though still trying to open up more..no more eating lunch/watch movie alone for a long time..dun 've time oso..haha..more time given to ministry but not reali 'stressed'/concerned w grades..talking to pple more oso..not necessarily Hope alone..been doing my readings more often..haha..joyful? haha..thank God..still take note of me n want to change me continually, bring me tis sinner to be more like Him ever more..how can i possibly reject, knowing n dun want to be e past marcus yesterday, last sem ever again..it's a terrible feeling for me..alone,depressed,negative,self-righeous,prideful,self-absorbed..nay no more..'therefore, if anyone in Christ, he is a new creation. the old has gone and the new has come'..'rejoice in the Lord always'..'..though outwardly we r wasting away but inwardly we r being renewed day by day'

thank God for my cg..w4..yeah man..though still a new gp,no ready guitarists but juz us..shared to one another openly our struggles..hmm..yeah..we all going for church camp!! the 6 of us!! Guopeng is confirmed coming for svc oso!! got to sow on brian n william after a dry period..it's reali refreshing to be able to sow again with the correct attitudes..thank God for e A- for hy test..caught me by surprise man..couldn't have done it without His help..though gonna flung my genes mid-term but it's ok..work harder for e exam..actually, i'm more pre-occupied w my 3 social work babies man..expectations r high to want to do well but i want to adjust it..not to be too bothered by e pressures..reali thank God tt i'm doing sw as my course..reali like e pple n e course itself..juz dressed up as a young punk doing break dance during tut juz now..haha..made a fool of myself..there's much for me to grow in relating to youths once again..but i reali look forward to it..yeah man..gd memories of taking care of cadets in npcc n my tuition student juz called me on sun to say 'thank you' for what i've advised her..it's reali great man..it made life worth living for, much more w Jesus in my life..and tis past wk juz connected to e social work pple esp e guys..each has a unique story to share, to be told..wow..i'm quite encouraged man..pple like choong guan,decai,dillion n e bros n sis-shuyi,yuzhen,kaiqi,sharon etc still doing God's work..great man..i can most probably live with the fact that i would not be earning much but at least i'm doing n pursuing sthg tt i truly like n not wat society perceives or the majority thinks..only 1 life..not much time left..as someone puts it plainly..a road less travelled..