been some time since i last blogged..haha..i thank God tt he has brought me back into his arms once again..been emotional man tis past few days..thinking of things..
feel kinda sad man tt derek has flew over to us..didn't really come upon me so much until he left yesterday..couldn't realli sleep..somehow juz feel it's all so sudden..couldn't have a proper time with him man and the next moment i knew it he's on his way to a new cty! reali have fond memories of my shepherding with him..though we were closer in the past but he is one true friend and sheep whom i can be open with about my life..knowing tt he is pursuing his next step in life, fulfiling his dreams just warms my heart a lot..though it'd not be easy ahead..n but want to believe tt God w'd guide Him thru' as he did and will..he has impacted many by his life incl me myself! by his spirit of excellence and gd sense of responsibility..it can only be you Lord working in Him..
think i have more or less come to terms with my bad grades and numerous feedback received..maybe too busy w matriculation, dat's why no much time to do some self-reflection..haha..only until now..reali glad tt pple like sijia,kaiqi,zewei,gp have been helping me out..if not also dun noe wat to do..haha..i am moving on with you Lord no matter wat has happened..i juz want to put it behind me and strain on towards wat is ahead..yeah man..ps jeff's msg spoke to me..esp for older believers like me coming to 5 yrs liao..can't believe it how my heart can be so hardened, lack of gratitude and fear n reverence for God..it was a struggle for me..i could not reali sleep on sat night also..woke up also and juz teared and prayed tt God will sustain me and keep my heart pure and holy for him..in me, i was just so scared tt i'd lose my faith, not say give it up but juz remain stagnant..how can it be? God is so good in my life yet i still blame him tt he did not help me in my studies..did he get a gd deal out of me tis 5 yrs? will things be better without him? honestly, i dun think so..though i might manage my life well to a certain extent but in me i won't be fulfiled much,enslaved to lust,negativity,pride,anxiety..no friends..lack alone true joy,love,friendship..i can't deny tt Lord..u have been real in my life!
there r still so many yrs to go..little sleep tis past two nights..but think it's worth it..God help me to finish the race well..
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Hey dear bro, been reading through some of your blog entries, and just really want to say I'm very inspired and amazed at what God can do through you. =)
Think it's not been easy for you these times, struggling in your studies... plus the fear and uncertainty that lies ahead.
But just really want to encourage you that God has been with you all the way - remember how many souls He has brought to Himself through you?
You are storing up treasures for yourself in heaven, an inheritance that will never perish, spoil or fade. The time you have invested in drawing yourself and other people closer to God is an investment that will outlast you, outlast you all the way till eternity. =)
Dear bro, really thank God for a dear friend and bro like you - I've been praying and asking God to show me some godly role models whom I can learn from - and I think He's showing me someone now. =)
Haha... continue to fight the good fight, bro! :D For God is our strength and shield, even unto the very end. aMeN?
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