Grace

been a good break for me personally man..haha..did some readings though not much..haha..but momentum picking up but was a refreshing time..both w God,bros n sis around..liked e bros' outing..so rare tt we've such a chance to juz let down our hair and havoc! enjoyed e time w jan,michelle,kin wee also..

was talking to jan..both of us were juz amazed how God has brought us so far..i personally was touched man..hmm..guessed struggles do serve a purpose..i rem struggling so much with staying in hope half a yr back..everything seemd so bleak..haivng so much difficulty coming out of my comfort zone to lead my cg,relating to ppl around..personal struggles..

oh man..be4 i knew it, attachment n matric season..reali tough for me..esp e initial few wks..i must say wat alan shared kept me going..though i might not see God's purpose for my life but it does not mean tt i should stop sowing..the freshmen deserve to know his salvation as well..been stranded w 4Cs n 1U dun make e situation better as well..there's oso new unit n ppl tt i'm in..facing w all e stresses n emotional difficulties faced talking to the clients, who can i share to possibly? haha..may-sep, tis 5 mthsis juz ministry and work..nthg else..sch re-opens, faced w lack of motivation to study n personal issues..haha..

but in all, reali experience his grace in my life and our ministry..though i'm was not tt enthusiastic abt sowing at times, carrying so much baggage, failed n made some big mistakes in work,studies..but yet he carried me thru' all tis while..seriously it's not juz abt being used by Him,developing myself..but his patience,comfort and love..though i can't experience it,dun want to relate to Him or put Him in my life..he patiently waits n moulds me in the process..refines my faith and convictions in him after tis 5 yrs..i reali dun noe much abt him to be honest..it's so hard to keep e faith going after being so accustomed and comfortable in a sheltered world in all tis while..thanks to all e bros n sis tt has helped me also..esp my shepherd,zewei who reali gives me much support though veri little contact time w him but his life is one i want to imitate and follow much juz as he follows Christ..he is one of e few whom has a big influence in my life man..my jc tutor-darren wong,jason leow,dingting,alan

yet i want to take heart and be bold n courageous to pursue his love for me..might not be exponential kind of growth..my heart needs more pruning man..haha..but one tt he speaks to me personally abt..someone who is steady and confident, like the tree tat is planted by the streams, taking roots,rooted and growing in him, never fears and worries, bearing fruit in all seasons..wow..
do 've a sense of moving forward w you Lord, discovering my identity in you all over again..want to make my life count for you..every single bit of my soul,body n mind..use me Lord, such an unworthy n cannot make it sinner to bring glory to yr Name! :) time to dream big for you!!!!