closure..dreaming

enjoyed e time w Gerard and Guopeng yesterday..when we had fish head curry at Banana Leaf @ little india..then followed by beer @ Brewerkz at clarke quay..enjoyed life man..haha..not juz that..me n gerard reali shared our hearts to guopeng..help him to understand the value of salvation, even chipped in our personal testimonies along..how our Maker has changed us..overcome our weaknesses n be a better person..though he still feels that he needs time..but at least we have planted seeds in him..refreshed time for me as i had long time never share..thx God

tink Gerard has grown at his church..in terms of understanding of his salvation and even finding more joy in his life..it's quite evident..wat a closure..when initially he left..and now knowing that he is still trusting and serving Him..just put my heart at rest..things were different wih tis brother i talked to on sun..he seemed distracted and focused on what is immediate..how abt his relationship w God man? i not sure..yet it is a new beginning for him too..as he re-discover abt himself in Christ as he walks e ardous journey..it is an irony man..same faith everyone is having but yet different paths and pursuits to take..

it was a closure for me oso as i collected my gown on wed..reali not looking forward to e ceremony except e time of catching up n pleasing my parents..it's no big deal man..wat is a big deal for me is this new life stage that i had started? prob around 40 yrs..find it hard as i try to connect to my cg sis n her colleagues who are all teachers yest night..wasnt tt fruitful but reali are exposed to working ppl n wat they talk abt..prob they dun noe anything except my name..haha..yet it is not impossible oso..

there are new challenges man as Alan shared to us wat kind of working ppl he hopes us to be..everyone are all in diverse fields from entrepreneurs to teachers..it is across the spectrum..yet that's e exciting part to me..it is unventured territory..everyone adjusting n refining their personal convictions..i do tink of my calling, wat God has blessed me tt i have e strengths in..one thing is evangelism, sthg tt 've always in my heart since i come to e Lord..feels burdened to share n live it as a lifestyle..esp in our turmoil world, ppl need to hear e Good News..how they r spiritually dead and Christ want to reconcile to them, offering salvation and new life and purpose..it is my desire man..prob bring hundreds if not thousands of souls to cross e line directly or indirectly..in my lifetime..maybe preach in a big group setting if He opens the doors for me..dreaming tt i could pioneer a cg/unit @ hougang? haha..or maybe start a cg in sports-all runners/biathletes yet want to run for Christ n bring other runners oso..or at my workplace..

do hope to champion maintaining a balanced lifestyle, having both physical and spiritual fitness, growing healthily in these aspects..can't do with neither..esp living in a stress-filled n hectic city..learning how to find rest and keeping oneself alert is impt..all e money n spirituality can't substitute for health if this element is not there..you can enjoy but might not be to the fullest potential as God desires..n oso e need to be relevant and well-informed n connected..must say tis is an area tt i can grow a lot in..at least keeping oneself updated of latest trends n news..but reali look forward to how God w'd lead me to fulfil His plan for me..not juz e bread-and-butter issues-get a job, life partner etc..tink it's reali secondary..He'd give at the right time..sthg i believe strongly..not rushing yet seeking,anticipate how He'd bless..got an opening at TOUCH..e guy called me juz now but it has to deal w young children..not my forte..so didnt take up e offer..initially tinking wat a waste but yet i do not want to regret oso..reali need His guidance..i am open to any job but do not want to be hasty..jobs like shift work,rush deadlines..not tt keen man esp in banking or uniformed groups..tink it'd disrupt my future ministry..reali i need faith n discernment..

tinking of maybe i'd be a 9-6 worker but after dat it is ministry time! training for my running? going for courses? acting/fellowship..hmm..e analogy i tink of is prob like superman..holds a mundane office job but lives a secret n exciting life..ppl prob w'd be tinking n interested in my life n our church life?

busy but yet fulfiled, shine at workplace yet live a balanced life, confident yet humble n interested in helping others, inadequate yet bening used greatly by e Lord in weaknesses as a testimony..wow..i can only dream n believe it'd come to pass..

there are a lot of opportunities n possibilities in e adults ministry..one reali needs to have e courage n boldness to dare to imagine and dream big..pushing e boundaries of His kingdom..how much our ministry can reali prosper,growing and glorious is dependable on everyone, not juz alan or e leaders alone..