day dreaming...

finally started sending the resumes over the weekend..if not, will have guilt man especially I am just like watching soccer and nothing else..feels rejuvenated now..not the sluggish or easily tempted heart I experienced over the past few weeks..it’s like a new chapter has begun for me..according to MBTI, well, I am a Feeling personality, E-I(Introvert still though seems like more and more extroverted) Sensing and Perceivng..it’s quite a contrast say 6 yrs ago when I was in JC..prob people remembered me the most by how serious,blockhead and introvert as I was..to just wait for things to happen or believing many ways to live life as a Perceiving person is unimaginable for me that time..

Job-wise, I see myself opting in between Sensing and Intuition learning preferences..meaning to say that, as I have sent out the resumes reflected, either I will end up as an administrator,education/syllabus executive or the other extreme is to be a tour guide/event management such as managing sentosa facilites..haha..wow..it’d be a dream to pursue if it is God’s Will but now I look at photos with faith..can see myself enjoying the dynamics of discussion and marketing the attractions..receive good reviews from tourists..

It just seems so appealing to me..if not I will prob opt for what I am trained in, as a youth worker..thank God for an opening at TOUCH..it was posted like 2wks ago.it’s like pleasant surprises I receive from the Lord as I prioritise Him first in my life...gifts of His Rhema word for me, job openings, great fellowship..new gifts yet to be given out..he is testing me..and building his trust with me..till i pass the tests..ok, passed, let me restores u and unveil my Spirit and rewards unto you..

tink it was not easy for me initially to practise Matt 6:31-33 (NLT), “So don’t worry about having enough food or drink or clothing. Why be like the pagans who are so deeply concerned about these things? Your heavenly father already knows all your needs, and he will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern.”

Find myself struggling in between coming out of my own world to work on my personal struggles and know new people and outreach versus balancing with the time and energy needed to find jobs.but beginning to take heart and enjoy this period of testing in my life: continue to trust in His providence and guidance..it’s back to basics of following God..nothing complicated or intellectual..just as the kind of faith of Abraham possess..do not know what is ahead but just obey God and enters into new land..step by step, God just guides Him and he holds to His promises dearly and waiting for their fulfillment in his life..and it is credited as righteousness in God’s sight  want to have such faith as well

Otherwise, I have been enjoying this waiting period to catch up with friends. Reali appreciate those moments, though how short the time might be, but just being able to be open and honest with myself and listening to another friend share, it’s wonderful..tink it is not reali important to have close proximity as an important element in friendship though it is much desired..it can be measured by the number of years that one knows his friend or be it the same values or understanding. As such, it is sufficient for the friendship to go deeper..especially as working adults, the contact time for one another is like so much constrained but yet it is still possible for one to be reali deliberate and take the effort with every avail opportunity to be interested in your friends..tt’s prob enough..this speaks volume if not as much as close proximity or companionship..24-7 kind..have to be with you all the time..have to adapt myself man..

Pretty much immense in the world cup fever..impressed by how the Germans..power pack man! Especially the match against Sweden..i have nothing to say man..though it is on home ground and the whole country is behind them..they have great attitude and potent attack, simply attack from the first blow of the whistle..watching the tag team between Podoski and Klose is fantastic..how Klose fools the Swede defenders and shrewdly pass the ball to the waiting Podolski to hit the ball home with his lethal left foot…Philipp Lahm the leftback supplying the crosses and shoot as and when needed..not forgetting Ballack and Schneider controlling the pace of the game..fantastic man..Klinsmann is prob the most animated coach-jumping,express himself upfront,passionate so unlike other deadpan coaches behaving so indifferent when their teams perform..what a change of impression that they have created unlike the unfavorable reviews of the team at the start of the tournament..

There is more to come in due time..but for now...reali hope to do my part to outeach and advance God’s kingdom, to be reali counted for..despite our contact pool reali dry and long time never sow...hope to bring 3 souls into His kingdom by xmas and assist bros n sis to sow on their friends..another thing is probably how to spearhead the marathon training in my cg...seeing the jog/running group go off well..as what xiaoli puts it quite plainly..to be one that will bless our people and friends..tinks it is the same as our lives..as much as God has blessed us by giving His son to us, we will give our lives for Him to be used at His disposal..

Mark 8:34-37 (NLT), “Then he called his disciples and the crowds to come over and listen. “If any of you wants to be my follower,” he told them, “you must put aside your selfish ambition, shoulder your cross, and follow me. If you try to keep your life for yourself, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake and for the sake of the Good News, you will find true life. And how do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul in the process? Is anything worth more than your soul?”

It is so true..the kind of Self that we wage war against daily in order for us to serve Him..sometimes I cannot help but be disgusted by the self-absorbment that I have or see in people..the self-glorification and seeking for excessive personal attention..self-deceived by all that one is and have..that is why Jesus says, humble oneself and take up His cross, one of sacrifice, justified before God and not men, seek approval and security from Him and not men..preserving and taking care of one’s soul..no matter how one make a mark out there or be it a high flier or ordinary Joe..it is something every Christ follower will have to grasp with and appreciate..the worth of a growing and loving relationship with the Maker, not measured with what we are or have but who He is, die to Self and follow him