phase 2

feels gd these few days, tink mainly due to my manager's departure, seems to rekindle the enthusiasm in me..man..tis is an excellent chance to grow n learn, thx God, find myself attending more meetings which is good..talk to different people n finding common ground..

i was somewat a bit 'sianz' last nite when i went for unit..though must said was reali refreshed by e steps needed to study e Bible in-depth..much needed at a time when myself sometimes can juz reli on pastors to draw out e insights for me..preached n i got 'fed' instead of finding my own food..it seemed a contrast, my small community, compared to interacting to my colleagues outside..i enjoyed myself quite a lot at e workplace, joking n enjoying e companionship..yet i found myself surrounded by some of my cg ppl who seemed deep in thought, reclusive, quiet..hmm..reali dun noe oso..

not being negative here or think dat i'm veri different..but it reali gets me thinking..where is e joy n zeal that comes from Him? How is it possible for us to engage the world with such passive hearts? yet burdened at the same time when knowing some of our ppl still finding hard to secure a job, like jiaxiang n kin wee..searching for half a yr liao? if some of us could be more networked, know more ppl..dat could make a big difference..or take e effort to read up n be an active learner..trusting Him at e same time as well..

otherwise, i thank Him as well..all these things happen at e time oso..feels renewed in my heart to want to mentor my sheeps well..namely swee leong,hongdao n jacky..ad-hoc-derek..can't leave him alone man..realising wat i do in my work, there is at e same time, a simultaneous parallel to ministry..

-specialise in youth n tertiary: dat's where my passion is n some of my sheeps still there
-promote sports to sch,thru sch n sch thru sports
-dat's wat i am trying to develop a niche in: promote Christ thru sports, sports thru Christ-living a lifestyle dat is healthy n being fit, giving honor to Him in all e pursuits dat i am embarking on: races,soccer - listen n learn from ppl actively n noe ppl thru such platforms..during breaks, just talk to someone..man..exchanged name cards..there u have it..

- all e things i'm 'imitating' from my boss who is a great model of being Christlike at workplace...makes me all e more i want to model after him everytime i talk to him..tis guy can reali think and analyse so well..sharp yet sensitive to e audience..humorous n great heart to serve, engage..PR skills top-notch man..every few steps he take, he'd noe some ppl man..by hook or crook..sometimes feels great to be surrounded by ppl like my boss, zewei n alan who want to make their lives count for Him..e spirit of excellence n be veri energetic,hands on to achieve their dreams

guess i am trying to go on such a path as well..doesnt make sense to me at all to be passive, comfortable w where i am, huddling..though i do need them as safety net..but it's not all encompassing..do desire to get humbled, learn n re-learn continously..there's juz so much to explore..w all e spare energies n strength i attained thru veri regular workouts..man..no time to dwell in sadness,disappointment,past mistakes as much as possible..

it's reali an opportune time
-pioneer a sports cg
-advocate for wat's right, stand up to be heard
-networked so well..can bring some to noe Him as will..bless ppl in our community
-exercise dilligently both spiritually n mentally..reading n reflecting
-pursue all e races, theatre training, counselling, investing, relationships
-being a good minister, care genuinely for ppl,sheeps