exciting

can't wait to get my legs working for e workout later..yes..soccer..feels invigorated by this sport everytime i played it..last sat..played some matches..halfway thru..tink i was panting too hardly..so rested..prob becos of dat when i played e last match..got dat extra energy to push for attacks..sprinting n trying to score n finish well..these couple of mths find myself wanting to play forward more..it's juz thrilling to put e goalkeeper on his nerves n no defenders to cover..but lack stamina..but w'd train for it..

these few days were like walking out of e desert for me..see a clearer picture at least for career..after all e talking w colleagues n bosses..guess it's a blessing dat my manager is departing..more opportunities for growth..before dat was thinking..half a yr and juz organise a seminar? looking forward to e gathering next thurs..tink it'd be exciting to hear wat CEO has to share abt some of e work we are doing here..this is reali an opportune time to do n grow sports in spore..F1 circuit,medal hopefuls,international events staged here..

was juz thinking..guess all my life have been about following yr heart, true to yrself, being pragmatic n idealistic..adapting n learning..guess jack of all trades but master of none..was so glad dat my turn to be humbled last wk after e SubD testimonies
my departing manager shared dat i can be more proactive n assertive..thank God man..tot i not gonna learn any truths from this organisation..haha..it's not first time i heard this..dun noe why oso..prob becos of e environment i am in or e course i take..seems like a big departure from e old me when i was in jc..was reali on..cca-crazy but now..hmm..maybe different purpose n understanding yet it's definitely an area dat i should grow in..less phlegmetic n be more choleric

see some strengths as well
>in e words of my boss for my appraisal on tues
"eager to learn new things and engage with partners by making site visits to events dilligently" n "has positive attitude and is always ready to lend a helping hand"..well let's see how things go..havent been in e furnace yet
>mentoring: enjoyed this reali a lot since my sec sch npcc days taking care of my sec 2 squad..fighting for their rights. was a turning point for me..discover dat life can be more than juz mugging..God nurtured this area even more by giving me opportunities to grow my heart n be used to impact souls thru following His ways of showing love
>pioneering: same as above, like to learn new things..try sthg different..
>sports, theatre
>leadership: hmm..not sure man..

tot of a few impt life decisions dat i had made so far...
1.sec sch-dropped bio after a yr though most of my classmates were taking 9 subjects..
2.jc-dropped F Maths after first three mths..did 3 A level subjects only..started to follow Christ
3.ns-went to airbase doing security..tink BMT cannot make it..haha
4.nus-chose social work over economics..did not do honours..graduated w BA..spent my 3rd year giving time to ministry n developing personal interests
5.finding jobs-did not choose social work n picked sports-new area of speciality fo me

hmm..i wonder what is e next step to go?
A)either sports man..maybe change dept..go sports business or team spore side
B)if not, reali go into schools..pe teacher? juz floating w e idea..

was thinking all dat spore is doing all thse years..learning n copying from other countries..their tried n tested models of success..adapt to our local context n come up with our local brand and export again..if i were to stay in youth sector, education is major need for our young ppl..maybe in due time can think of some creative youth developmental tool..eg effective counselling methods/how to discover their life purpose..alan n zewei are doing dat man in e corporate side..gaining success..re-packaging yet meet a fulfiled and God-honoring life..tink it's veri possible..hope to connect e dots dat w'd link to my life purpose..

otherwise i juz pray dat i'd crave for dat kind of hunger, humility n zeal in learning n re-learning in order to ctd to be effective n salty..now reali 'forcing' myself to read those Rich Dad Poor Dad investment books n driving-advanced theory test coming up..man..reali feel e resistance inside me but see the values in doing these..need to oso mull over God's Word drawing more n experience His power n transformatn..feels guilty neglects this area sometimes..but man tis is a worthwhile investment not juz for now but future as well..

reali neutral abt new ppl joining our group..restructuring is pretty much part of life..though of cos a bit excited abt my sister! coming over..n some of e nus ppl joining us..have been a while..tink i am more excited abt swee leong n co rising up to take care of the various small groups..reali ushering a new tier of leaders who chose to stand in e gap..i'd give my support,energies n time watver i can..feels great to noe him n e rest will do greater things than us..believe so :)

next wk is exciting!
derek is back liao on mon!
mum is coming back from indonesia on sun!
mon-wed (21-23/5) - discussion about hand/takeover
tues-uni camp
wed-champions league finals. AC Milan will surely win :)
thurs-CEO's sharing
fri-tertiary strategic meeting. handover/takeover of tertiary manager, new directions n projects..
sat-swatch's beach volleyball event at sentosa
sun-pentecost sun
tues (29/5) -advanced theory
wed-division meeting
thurs-mission conference