crossrds

i juz feel so tired in serving tis two wks man..i dun feel like carrying on, juz want to throw in e towel and move on to another church had enough of staying in Hope..tired of having to give up time n focus on ministry..so many times, i want to go for tis course and tt seminar but always restricted..i can't see much hope on uni ministry, not much gwth..can't relate to pple around..always talk abt e same stuff..not many pple i'm close to are still in Hope..yet i noe it's not juz e commitment tt i'm concerned with but it's more than tt..it's issues tt i've to resolve w God..it has hardly got to do with e church,sys or pple..i know tt leaders, a few bros n sis around are doing their part to show care n concern..but i lack courage to talk to them..still prideful n reluctant..oh man..i know oso if i were to ctd to stay on, i better be more committed to oopening up to tis spiritual family and give my utmost best to serving Him..i'm at e crossrds..but things are showing tt i'd choose e latter to stay on..