new chapter

so glad attachment is ending..even as i type this..6 more hrs to go n it's freedom! can have more time to fellowship,sleep, meet up w frenz..miss that man..esp now matric season+attachment was veri tough..at certain times, juz feel like resting, dun have time to think abt other things..oh man..after work meet cg n sheeps..haha..

but thank God for his grace..sustains me thru' out..haven't fallen sick except tis few days..feel heaty n coughy..other tt..still feeling good..i got a C for e attachment..my 4th one since last sem's results..not totally surprising..though i kinda tot can get B but still it's reasonable..faced a lot of difficulties in keeping myself focused on helping clients, maybe it's lack of confidence/fear/knowledge..combination of tis factors..but wat's underlying..it makes me think more abt whether i am suitable to work in tis field n a litmus test how much can my Christian values carry me thru' when i work in 1yrs' time..

honestly speaking, i think i prob can only survive juz e minimum..dun think can influence much man..so sad n humbled by tis truth..i did not take it well when my supervisor gave his frank comments abt my performance..in areas related to social work, i only grasped hold of e basic only..that aside, i dun seem to take ownership of my job well, passive n take things into my hands at times..among e rest..he did mention tt i am able to take feedback well n show potential to advocate for clients though i have difficulties expressing it..

hmm..as i think further, though a C, what i learnt more abt myself n future is more rewarding..picked up quite a little..i was reminded of e passage in Corinthians..abt God using the fool to shame the wise..actually i find tt i am a veri ordinary person as i learnt thru' tis attachement, before tt, i am thinking like i am of a bit of substance la..as a CL..haha..which happens at times..wat u experienced in church doesn't necessarily mean u can thrive outside..it's a diff ball game..

yet i rejoice also for all these improvement points abt myself..it only mean tt God can be glorified thru' my life for His glory..as simple as tt..i am only grateful to be saved by His grace..i just want to give my utmost to grow n make myself useful n worthy of His praise..yeah man..it's a gd experience thru' tis yr's matric..learnt to be more bold and courageous and not to hold back..cannot man..a moment of hesitation, fear, negativity can just prinks on yr heart..it can be a seed of destruction sowed..really..it's deadly God will not be pleased..

will discuss more with zewei and see how things can be worked out..haha..well, enough of serious reflection, time to fellowship n win souls for Him! reali believe tt there'd be few who will cross the line in august..it's exciting man..