comeback

just saw e news..i am quite encouraged man by man u..yeah my favorit club..though they might not tt glamourous compared to the past byt yet they come back, fight a good fight to reverse their losing streak..give e chelsea boys sthg to think abt their dominance..but still a long way to go for them to restructure themselves-start winning,buck up,win some glory back and..

guess it relates to my spiritual life as well..had a tough time fighting this a wk and plus..ironically starts from me moving hse..before e event, i was oredi veri fearful how will i go thru'..coupled with e understanding tt i've my presentatns,gp projs due pretty soon..everyone is quite busy and seems to be some misunderstanding surfacing but not addressed..

it was a big struggle..felt veri drained physically..hardly any time to rest well..it's not e main issue though..realised it's mostly e internal dialogue tt i've to resolve..tt's more impt..i did feel lousy tis period of time, finds myself inadequate to manage my life well..tis statement juz sunk into my mind and does its work for a few days..physical rest not enough liao thus affected my time w God..finds it hard to claim his promises, can't believe w faith n assurance tt i'd be able to come out of it..it's like God i dun think i can trust u to help me, maybe i should do it myself vs argh..i can't do it myself..how to trust him still..

but reali glad tt things r much better now..presentations n gp projs turned pretty well..it's quite amazing..finds myself oso able to concentrate n rehearse w keith for my oral exam ltr in e day..not so sure but willing to make mistakes..had a changed perspective oso as i talked w zewei-instead of expecting ppl to support, go n support others instead..it does work..Pro 11:25, He who prospers others will himself be refreshed..

it's like e club i support, not all is going on well..not yet..but i reali believe tt's how one can grow in maturity whether is it dealing w pple or oneself-e internal dialogue n see how God works his way thru' us..we r after all his children, he desires to take care of our affairs..e bros in my cg not doing dat well yet compared to wat i went thru' 2 yrs back..it's much milder but still impt and needs to be addressed..i thank God for allowing this issue to happen no matter how 'ugly' n 'out of hand' it might be..but yet..i can reali be humbled n grow in maturity to relate n love ppl of all kinds despite not e same personality or less spiritual potential..not my definitions but God's definitions..as simple as dat..

i look forward to becoming e person He wants me to be after e exams having learnt how to trust in him to manage myself n cg well..by faith, i'd walk w u Lord